You may or may not know that I was diagnosed with Poly Cystic Ovarian Sydrome at the age of 14 and Ive had complications with my ovaries ever since.
Glendon and I have started trying to have a baby, its something that I have dreamed about for awhile now. I work with children 11.5 hours a day, and Ive been longing for the time when I would be able to take care of my own.
Having PCOS can make it difficult to concieve and it seems that miscarriages are also common with the disease. But I am determined to be a mother and make this dream come true. Which is why next week I will start taking 4 different medications to jump start ovulation and get things in working order. I cant deny that I am very disappointed that I have to go this route and not be able to do everything on my own, naturally, but I suppose if this is the only way, then thats what I will do.
However I must say that prenatal vitamins do wonderful things! My hair and nails have never been so healthy :) and Ive yet to get any of these colds and flus that have been going around the school, and if you know my immune system, that is a very rare thing!
The downside to this is that Ive been very emotional and taking things very hard. Its very frustrating to me to see young girls 18, 19, 20... having children, children that were not at all planned,..and "oops" and yet here I am 25, married, and unsure if I will be able to be the mother I so long to be. Ive been trying to stay positive, and trust that the Lord has a plan for me, that includes becoming a mother, some days are just harder than others...
Very insightful. Our life experience are there sometimes for a reason(s), and sometimes just there. We can, however, use those experiences to help us understand what our purpose is on this earth, at this particular time. Who knows why (I know I have tried to understand) some people like you.....who really, really, really want children have difficulties; and, those who could care less...oops... are having them fast and furious. What we can do is just relax and enjoy the experiences. I think you have taken a great first step. Writing/blogging is very therapeutic, and can lead us to answers we never knew were there.
ReplyDeleteSo relax....enjoy the experience. It sounds like God may have placed the two of us together, in the life, for a reason. Enjoy that...revel in that....celebrate the two of you...delight in each other. Miracles can and do happen every....day....day in and day out.
Love you, Dee Jones
Oh...sorry the first sentence of the last paragraph should read....God may have placed the two of YOU...together.....my fingers are cold....I guess. (smile)
ReplyDeleteThank you, I'm so blessed to have you. XOXO
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